JJ Grey

Feelaholic

but it can be lowered or raised

Are we living?  Really LIVING?????????

In times like these it's easiest to get lost or give up.

I am not a know it all.  I am a feel it all.

My name is Angie, and I am A Feelaholic.

What hurts a feeler the most is knowing that too many humans are afraid to feel.  They rely on substances to help them cope.  But, my question is; what is it inside that is too scary to feel and heal?
What's eating you?

Feeling is healing.  And each soul/spirit on this planet has the right and is born to be free.  Free from lies that bind.. and ties that choke.  Symbolic is the neck tie.  Even if not worn, it's a symbol of being cut off and controlled.  Success isn't measured by achievements.  It is measured by trust in being okay with being authentically one's self. That is a huge notion isn't it?

As a parent who's aware of many mistakes I made along the way, I often imagine and hold space for my off-spring to be free while they live and breathe.

Life is very colorful. It is when light shines through, we see all colors have brilliant hues to provide, if not dimmed.  The monster that exists to dim our life light source is a killing machine.

The tentacles of a monster can wrap around and provide false sense of being okay.
A broken handle to hold on to. Keeping things the way things are can feel safe, but is it?

One of the most horrific monsters is, of course, the creative delusion of pharmaceutical panaceas.  They will kill a spirit, and eventually that which houses it.

Regret?  Sadness?  Grief?  Guilt?  Shame, Anger?

All of these are 'normal' and healthy emotions and MUST be expressed to become processed.  If left unprocessed, the vessel containing them expands in a myriad of unhealthy ways.  It becomes a volcano of sorts.  Sitting dormant but expanding, yet, no where to escape.  Joy, compassion, gratitude, fearlessness and trust are buffers to ease the soul as it feels to heal.

I have regrets.  I have been sad a lot.  I have experienced intense grief.  I know guilt and shame. My different shades and hues are not subdued.  Perfection is not something to strive for, but purification and authentication of spirit is.  It is necessary to go in to get out.

We wear our temples.. our solid hollow meat suits.  They warn us when we're not authentic. Our spirit vessels can expand into a protective lie or wither away to the bare bones with some flesh.  There is a balance to attain and maintain. Life is precious, and not given to be afraid of.

Owning dis-ease, regardless of the form it is manifesting, means it owns[drives] the vehicle in which it is presenting itself.  Speaking in terms of needing something, a substance ingested, to prevent a feeling is such a horrible travesty.  A crutch that will never allow a steadfast walk upon the earth and is handed out for too many to fall for it's use.  


Please, if you've read this far, will you ask yourself if you're authentic in BEING?  Are you truly alive? Or maybe just existing in a pre-fabbed habitat?

One of my favorite long-time clients will be 80 in May.  She is my hero, a protege!  She is prescription free, consciously choosing to be healthy.  She's known loss and anger, but refuses to let any emotion to be suppressed.  I am especially fond of this lovely being.  She's doing whatever itakes to stay happy, healthy and joyful.  I appreciate deeply and applaud any and every person that is willing to be real and keep going forward in a purposeful and authentic life no matter what past experiences you've had.  If you're someone that is not allowing you to be you for real, TODAY is a great day to begin.
Every day is just that; A New Beginning.  

In closing this, my therapy of choice,  Will you take time to breathe and KNOW you are capable of feeling this life.  Beat the odds.  Be the change.

Humanity needs no brothers and sisters living disguised and disfigured by suppression of emotions.  The world is geared towards making us feel like something is wrong if we have negative feelings.  Realistically, those feelings come to us because we KNOW something is very wrong with modern society.  

Our goodness is being raped and pillaged right before our very hearts and eyes. Please don't remain in that game.  Feel the way out.